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She's My Grief​.​.​.​Decade (CD1)

by Mournful Gust

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The First Spring Without You Also there has set in... the first spring without you And again I go on a path of my tears Where once we were happy And in sweet embrace of scarlet twilight I saw her sad eyes As if a wingless bird, she´s my grief And we shall die together... you are my mournful gust 18 July 2000
Path Of My Tears I don´t feel fascinating heat of your caressing hands I forget our last dawn in crimson rays Your farewell embrace don´t warm me And your mysterious whisper don´t beckon me in eternity I´ll harden by a tear on your sleeping face And with death will go in your calm dream I see dying away stars Falling from an abyss of eternity If you could extend to me the hand... your hand And conduct me along a path of my tears I cry with an entreaty in dying sky Among bleeding stars I seek for your glowing eyes Stay by me, full me with your fire And pray, hear my voice, come back to me Become me and full me with your fire And pray, hear my voice, and return to me I was your heart so long as light hasn´t stolen it I was you so long as the mist hasn´t separated us I touch by shivering lips to icy stones I kiss your shade sliding on a path of my tears Whether you remember our maiden dawn What warm whiff has woken our hearts? Whether you remember how we died Among smoldering combustions of our life 17 April 2000
Once We Were Happy Really my heart will bleed always And my cut off wings will not grow again Really I´ll never touch to lips of eternity Blossoming scarlet flower on my grave At one time we were immortal At one time we were the only Now you´re the snake in my heart The snake in my bleeding heart And we´re as wingless birds in a paradise garden Cry above a grave of our eternal youth Please, deceive me Say to me what is it only dream I´m spring in a crown from dead flowers I fade in dance of solitude And you stung me having filled a blood by venom And then I did know that so the hell starts Please, deceive me Say to me what is it only dream But I´m too alive what to believe your lie I´m too dead what to see salutary light The eternity was our name We drank youth from the rivers of bliss But the sin has made us dead... 08 May 2000
Sweet Embrace Of Scarlet Twilight Open to me a secret of your dreams Where I´m the hero of your lusts And in sweet embrace of scarlet twilight I shall become the knight of your night illusions Neverland, I have believe in your myth I was so naive in my death I knew, that not return in a reality any more Charmed by your fantasies I´m a naked nerve in your hand You see all my dreams through Whether you dream of me now When I speak these words Now I belong to you forever My rest is stolen by your kiss And let moon becomes our witness When we shall merge in sweet embrace of scarlet twilight 08 May 2000
I Saw Her Sad Eyes Her face is mirrored in lunar glowing The tears, so sweet tears are flowing from her eyes Eyes, so sad eyes look at me for the last time Let to touch them with my gaze for the last time I´ll never forget when our glares have united I´ve feel a fire and something has woken up inside me And as a beast I wanted to take possession to her But having thrown on her I´ve dissolved in her shade We´re as the lover flowers But we can´t touch to each other And the wind breaks off our petals Those are so beautiful in rays of a sunset I saw her sad eyes, her eyes for the last time I was her cry, I was her tears I´ve touched her soul for the first time Having broke her as the crystal castle In her eyes I see my reflection Heavens full of stars and moon instead of pupils And the tears flowing from her eyes Are transform to celestial crystal We´re as snow on the sun melt in our embrace We harden as a sculpture and we peter for ever And something invisible binds us In silent dance of grief connecting us together I would like to forget it absolutely It is more never to recall her But every night I look in heavens And the moon draws her portrait again 09 May 2000
As A Wingless Bird She´s my grief She´s my tears of despair She´s sleeping beauty in my dreams She´s ashes of my hopes She´s voice of my eternity She´s frankness of attracting midnight She´s mistress of my heart She and nobody except her Bird, celestial bird Bird, wingless bird The bird remain with me for ever ... She´s my grief No, beloved, not for us this spring We have lost our happiness outside our bodies All that you see now it´s only dream The reflection that never will happen At one time we were birds with you And with enjoying soared in the clouds eternal But arrows of death pierce our wings And we´re as if silence have felled in our life That day when I´ve stretched hands to heaven She as a bird has felled on my palms By the wounded bird tearing out from my dreams By the angel it´s in the flesh... by the bird without wings She´s my grief She´s in a captivity of the body She´s a wingless bird She´s all my dreams She´s embodiment of fantasies She´s the castles in the air She´s got used to ground She and nobody except her If only I had wings, I would give them to you I agree eternally to be tormented on this ground If only to enjoy your flight In heavens that are so far away from me 05 June 2000
... And We Shall Die Together The hands are closed in the last embrace The lips are merged in farewell kiss I see the sun is setting in your eyes In your sad eyes are full of tears All what was inside of our now is dead We see burns out fire He was burn in ours hearts And now die away by the wind of grief Human voices are calm down Bird´s singing is calm down Your crying voice is calm down And your eyes are closing for ever It is not what I saw in my dreams It is not what we dreamt when on is awake It is our a last minute And we´re in the power of perfidious moment A last gulp of air A last beat of heart We kept our oath And we shall die together Ours rivers are dry up Ours flowers are picking Our night is disappear forever In the rays of betrayal sun And we´ll set off for eternal journey Lying together in a boot crossing the rivers of death I die away feeling your kiss And how sad if you feel same 05 June 2000


Re-issue of the legendary album of Ukrainian gothic doom death metal band! The album material is fully remastered and is supplemented with a bonus CD containing demo of 2006 “The Frankness Eve”, cover versions of Mournful Gust songs by invited musicians and “With Every Suffering” video from the actual album. Enforced by new power “She’s My Grief” album proves to be still state-of-the-art piece of music.

It’s 10 years since these songs began to sound for the first time – we made an attempt to become nearer to heaven, we burnt our wings, but we have not burnt out. It was a great space of time for our short life and we decided to share everything with you. Our first album, our first experience… We are not perfect in this the most sorrowful style, but we wish to be sincere, because once this earth will wake up without us…
Sergey and Evgeny from Solitude/BadMoodMan, Vjacheslav Smishko, my one and only Milena, all my musicians, especially Alexander Glavniy and Evgeny Vecher – without you there wouldn’t be everything of what I’m proud and what fills my life… And my applause is for you, for re-editing of our "She’s My Grief"…
The better times waits for us, thanks a lot…

Vlad Shahin / Mournful Gust, 2010


released June 5, 2010

Vladislav Shahin - vocals
Alexander Glavniy – lead guitar
Evgeny Vecher – rhythm guitar
Evgeny Kozlovskiy – bass guitar
Artem Lygun – keyboards
Vjacheslav Kapusta - drums

Additional musicians:
Oksana Krivenko – soprano
Anna Dobrydneva – female vocals
Andrey Chistoserdov – violin
Alexander Ulanov – flute

All music composed by Alexander Glavniy
All lyrics by Vladislav Shahin

Recorded and mixed at Jazz Club Studio
by Vitaliy Seroshtan (Krivoy Rog, 2 May – 2 October 2000)

Remastered by Alexander Glavniy
(Autumnia studio, 2009)
Designed by Nurgeslag

BadMoodMan Music // BMM.033-10


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MOURNFUL GUST Kryvyi Rih, Ukraine

Mournful Gust is gothic/doom/death metal band from Ukraine since 1999...

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